Surreal but Nice

high school is over and college was not i thought it'll be. college was tough and i mean tough. there's competition, breaking rules and getting out there to explore. college was even worse.

i met 3 girls in college. the copycat, the trying hard and the desperate wannabe.

let's start with the copycat, she came from a not-so-popular-school, a decent one, but not the kind you hear everyday. its one of those schools that was actually founded by a church. you get the idea don't you? a school created by a church so they can spread the news. whatever news that'll be. she was the type of girl who doesn't really know what's going on. she was practically clueless and naive at some point. so, when you're clueless and out of this world? what do you basically do? do what everyone else does. she tried to be like her friends, how they dress, how they talk, what they eat, what they like, what they hate, who their boyfriends were, who to like, what to study and what to do. actually, she tried to become like them.

aside from her, we have miss trying hard. she, like the copycat, tried to fit in. while copycat was clueless, she on the other hand, knows whats going on. the thing is, its not like her. and whats worse, it doesn't look good on her. the trying hard, was not that rich, she actually didn't have a fortune to buy whatever she like, or whatever her friends has. so what she does is she doesn't eat. she saves her money to get what her friends has. she buys expensive clothes, eats at expensive restaurants. she tried so hard to fit in to this group of people she called friends. "so-called-friends". she puts on make up even if doesn't look good on her. tried to strut an apparel even if looks hideous on her. and tried to be demure and beautiful, even if she wasnt. trying so damn hard. but always fucked up.

then we have the desperate wannabe.. well she is pretty much like, the trying hard. but what happened to her, is even worse. to put up with all of her wants, she steals money, she sold her expensive items just to buy things that she wants and that she could show off to her friends. thing is her parents gave her what she needs. but doesn't allow her to have things that are not important at this point of her life. and that's what she hated. so in order to get what she wants. she sold whatever she can find that's expensive. you may want to count her necklace, her earrings. and her moms rings. and everything. she drastically tried everything she could think of.

all of them,as much as they want to be happy, didn't have a happy life. from the looks of it, it was actually hell. they wanted people around them to like them, that they wanted to be like them, when in reality these "friends" that they call them, hated them for trying. would not even care for them.